Background Testimony followed by Nona's Poem of her Testimony
Relationships is what Nona's ultimate struggle was. Growing up she didn’t really have a good relationship with her father. When she was younger she didn’t care, and thought that she didn’t need him. When her father was sick she didn't care if he lived or died. In high school, she felt lonely and desperate for love. So she tried to find real love in relationships with guys. Guys who weren’t worth her time or her attention. It wasn’t until her last break up in college that she finally realized who she had become and what she was doing.
Nona was lost, backslide several times, insecure, depressed, and guilty. Feeling all of that she thought she could never go back to God. At her lowest times God lifted her up to the highest point. From that point on she was on fire for God. She started to build her relationship and her foundation with Christ. Relationships have always been her struggle. Being single, settling, and patience are always things that was a struggle for her and with dealing with relationships. But, with a relationship with Christ she knew all things were possible with him and now she's happier than ever.
When I was lost in my sin, I trusted you.
I trusted that you would give me something that I was longing for.
I longed for true love.
A love that could last a lifetime. A love I could trust. A love in which I felt no more pain.
A love that could set me free. I gave you so many chances to do that for me.
You failed me each time. Every guy that came along. I grew more weak.
But I waited.
I put my Spirit on mute, and my calling on Do Not Disturb
So that I could hear you loud and clear. I took a detour in my walk to righteousness only to end up at a dead end…. I was stuck by myself.
But you being the “gentleman”. You sent me some company. Low self-esteem and depression.
Blinded by my insecurities, I lost myself. So I tried to find myself in my “one and only”.
You told me he was the one, and then it was him… and then he came along. Oh but see this guy he didn’t do the same thing as the last one so maybe it could be him… later the next one came along, ok now he didn’t cheat on me so yeah it could be him… no its not, its This guy, he told me he loves me so yeah he’s the one. Hey he introduced me to his mom, but…. He introduced the other girl to his mom too.
You told me that they were my one and only. But see the difference between your one and only and God’s one and only was….
Your one and only meant many... But God’s one and only meant the One who died for many.
I was waiting on my better, but my better didn’t come until I knew better.
I stopped looking at the boys around me and I looked up to the man above me who crowned me with royalty and righteousness… I’m found. I’m free.
You had your chance you blew it, now stand a side and watch a real Savior do it.
Verse of the Day
Psalm 34:17-19 (NKJV) The righteous cry out, and the Lord hears,And delivers them out of all their troubles. The Lord is near to those who have a broken heart,And saves such as have a contrite spirit. Many are the afflictions of the righteous,But the Lord delivers him out of them all.
Question of the day
Make a list of qualities that you want in a boyfriend/husband. Look at it and ask yourself “Am I settling?”